When I started doing this, I didn't even think I'd last for a year considering how my skills were. I can't help but cringe whenever I see my old works, like I want to dig a hole and hide. I was that student who belonged to the lowest group in the batch, you know? The one who never really have the talent. The ones who won't make it, they said. I was used to feeling that way since I never really did have the talent so it wasn't new to me. One, I'm a huge introvert. And two, I didn't bother about what others think of me. After all, it's my life not their's, right?
So to finally find something that I truly love and enjoy doing, I'm beyond blessed.
Funny how in the past, whenever I hear someone talk about passion, I can't help but laugh. Why you ask? It's because I couldn't believe what they were saying. Like is that really true? Only after experiencing it on my own did I fully understand what they meant. Nowadays, it's me saying the same thing and sometimes, all I can really say is, "Once it happens, you just know." It's hard to explain but yeah, it's different. So I'm grateful to God for leading me to this path.
If I didn't become a cover/graphic designer, who knows what I'll be doing now.
But like everything in this world, it also has its ups and downs. I've been disrespected so many times that I've lost count. I had clients disappear and not pay for the services I provided. I had people questioned me and made me feel I didn't deserve to be where I am. I had my fair share of bad experiences and they taught me things I would've never learned any other way.
Over the years, and after what happened to me for the previous months, I've learn and realize a lot of things. I've learn to prioritize my health the hard way and those who don't understand this are people I shouldn't work with. I've known the people who truly have my back when things are difficult. You guys know who you are. Please know that I'm always grateful to you for the patience, the understanding, for giving me the chance, for always believing in me, and for being such an amazing person from different parts of the world who I can truly call a friend. Some of you are even considered my best friends!
To be honest, some of you believe in me more than I believe in myself. It's a huge pressure at times but because of you, I learned to believe in myself more too. So thank YOU. I wouldn't be where I am now if it weren't for YOU! Thank you for being with CT for the past 8 years and hopefully, you'll continue to stay for more, more, and more years to come!
And lastly, my promise to you - who had been trusting me and my capabilities all these years - is that I'll continue learning and improving my skills in any way and whenever I can so that I can give you better covers that will represent your stories.
Again, I can't thank you guys enough for working with me. You changed a timid little girl's life more than you know.